I feel pathetic, frustrated, lonely.

I thought i was over this, but i wonder if i ever fully will be. i loved you, i love you; but you are no good. You are going to continue to hurt me and i am unsure if im ready to settle for that. I quote, " when i was home, id catch myself looking at you in a room full of people " When we were together and in love i could hardly get you to talk to me, look at me, joke with me... ANYTHING when other girls were around. Im sorry, i dont think youve changed. I think you want something that you now cant have and your realizing all the shit you put us through. I wont even say "me through" because i was honestly happy to do it, i loved working through problems with you.. but it wasnt good for me, and thats why i know i CANT love you; even though i want to so badly.

I will always be weak for you, and i hope this doesnt ruin all of my chances at love.